I Want You To Want Me

Dustin Hoffman was once quoted saying "I want a cookie. I want a party. I want, I want, I want. Me, Me, Me. My, My, My. Now, Now, Now." I am convinced this classic line is partially about women.

All my life I have been told to live life with chivalry and humility. Men are to treat women with the utmost respect. It is so deeply ingrained in who I am and I thank my mother and father for teaching me this. I believe it gives me a boost in life because I live by a code that goes way back to most ancient of times when men were men and that is what they were and all they could be. The thought of Chivalry to me is how you treat women in general. Not only by opening the door for them or paying for dinner on a date but also by pursuing them tirelessly. The rule is if you like a girl you go for her. Well I am here to say that is not the end all.

Just because men are the head and are called , it's biblical, to be the leader in the relationship and marriage doesn't mean that we don't want to be pursued just like a women does. I obviously can't speak for men everywhere but I will tell you now that I enjoy it when a girl not only lets me know that she likes me but also fights for the man that I am. And yes I am saying that the man I am is something worth fighting for. Not trying to sound conceited I just know how I treat girls and I have a tendency toward being awesome.

Now some people may think this thought is silly but i know there have been many times that choices would be so much easier if the girl I care for would show some effort. Now some may ask when is the proper time to show such effort. I tell you that no time is to soon. I am not talking about becoming clingy. Clingy is not good. I am talking about showing the emotion of jealousy when a guy talks about another girl. About saying this is why you should choose me not her. A guy can only give so much before he starts to question why he is giving it in the first place. I know that some people move slower than others but if you move to slow you will lose that race.

Effort can be simple things like leaving an encouraging note in the mail or sending a text in the morning to say i am thinking about you and wish that you have a good day. Little thoughts like this or more creative things will spark the interest even more. It adds mystery which everyone wants. Its the small things that add up to be the big finish.

I hope and pray the best for all my friends during this amazing time of year. Know that I love you and will continue to pray for you. If you have anything specific you need prayers for or need to talk about please let me know. Email me or Facebook me or call me. I am always ready to talk.

Time to Grow Up

Contrary to what most people will assume when they read this it is not in fact time for me to grow up. What this blog is about is how dumb some people are.

Case and point:

Tonight one of my teachers had a bonfire at his farm. It was an amazing night to be out taking in all the beauty that is Gods creation. The sky was so clear and all the stars seemed to be shinning just for me. As I was standing there enjoying myself talking about life with my friends I notice a group of people walking up. Now my teacher teaches a couple of freshman classes. As soon as they walked up it was easy to tell what was about to happen.

Soon the area was full of girls shaking there bottoms, like a shake weight commercial girl, by the fire in attempt to warm them. First off you don't have enough in that particular area to be shaking it like that. Second if a guy thinks that is attractive he probably is not the right guy to date.

The next spectacle that i noticed was a small clump of people who had found a small mound near the fire to lay under. I don't know if it was hot or not all i do know was they thought they were so so so so cool. Fact: you were not cool or awesome. Just because you had five girls laying on your lap does not make you awesome. What made it all the better was the amazing rendition of Good Night that could be heard rising from them. But none the less pictures were taken and i am sure that soon you can look at them on Facebook.

So to wrap this little trip down memory lane i just want to let my readers know that big fires are cool but laying down next to it is not. Big mounds of dirt protecting you while singing horribly is also not cool. And don't shake it at fire because its a fire. You can't get it turned on.

Getting the Job Done

How do you measure the importance of a situation? Do you decided based on who's there or what its for? Is it only because that special someone asked you to? I want to tell you that it doesn't matter.

As a Christian I am called to a higher standard of living. When asked to help the helpless I should jump in. When called to lead the leaderless I just should only be so happy to get in there. Its all about how committed to your word you are.

In years way gone your word was your bond. It meant that no matter what you said you were going to do it. People in todays time have forgotten what thats about. We say yes to things because the cute girl down the road asked us to or it will look really good on our resume. We don't just do things because it's the right thing to do and because it will change someone else's life. We do it because we know that in the end we will get the credit for being the hero.

So my challenge to you and even more-so to myself is to get the job done. To not be afraid of any situation and to always be willing to do something for someone else without expecting praise of any kind. The best kind of praise comes from when no one knows it was done by you but they are still thankful for the blessing.

What to say?

I've never known the right thing to say. In typing the words or in saying the words. I am not eloquent. Its just not something I have every been blessed with. But I feel like writing.

I don't know who I am anymore. I don't understand why I do curtain things or why I say certain things. Where is the person who used to inhabit this body. I want him back. I want the guy who loved life for everything that was given to him. The one who thought no mountain is to tall and nothing will ever keep me from the top.Those are the thoughts that have passed through my head many times in the past seven years or so.

When my depression set in while I was in high school there was that change. The one that no one ever wants to admit is happening. Three years ago I spent time at a summer camp that changed me. The lessons where over Gods unfailing Love for me, the sinner. Since then it has been an incredible climb. For about a year my climb has seamed to stop.

The only change that is worse than the change into depression is the one that snaps you back to life. When you realize how stagnant you have become. The main reason is because it comes at a cost. The cost is usually personal. It may not be personal to you, but it is to someone.

This post is my personal way of saying goodbye to Cameron. I know that you will be missed by everyone who ever came in contact with you. I want you to know how much your life meant to me. I always envied your voice. You could sing a lion to sleep. But i also want you to know that you have reminded me to live my life to the fullest because its the only one I have and my prayer is that your family will find peace in knowing you are in a far greater place. Please continue to look after us especially Lauren and the friends from Guthrie. I know they are missing you a lot.